letter to Ramsey

**machinery** · May 26th, 2001, 01:02 AM

Sitting ? waiting for my society class to start ? and I can?t concentrate ? these bats behind me, who wear too much make-up, conversate too loud too much and giggle fake plastic?Terribly complicated in my head today ? still dizzy from last night?s first kiss in three months plus - - Her lips were call all night (oh you wouldn?t believe the site they gave me.) Light plum pink and when my lips hit, hers exploded on mind and we opened up and our wetness shared - Quite amazing.
But I?m so blah blah, headaches and forehead sweat. Really hot today and my balls are more than moist ? boxers and pants stuck to my legs, no socks on and my shoes are gaining smell ? wet feet. Trying to register for classes today but nothing is open and god damn I can still hear these witches behind me with their constant gargle babble ? someone gag ?em! I was going to stay in the luxury of my room (where I was comfortable, no sweating and somewhat relaxed but I know I didn?t have these fucking coo?s behind me like I do now) but nah, I ventured here where now I am writing to maintain myself from the hot stench in her an the prom queen never-weres behind me. - - A girl I used to fancy is right in front of me. Hair frilly and real red shoulders ? must have been out in the SUNday in the yester ? but she?s nothing now ? she?s not Marie, oh christ man it was amazing ? it was her and I held her hand and we laid next to and on each other ? our lips met! Unbelieveably different. I couldn?t breathe. ? I walked her home later and got her around me (from her doing) and constant smiles. We kissed again and I left her on the steps of her housing.
I walked home with a leap in my step and angel Marie in my head. She called later ?round one and I was sleeping from my no-two-day sleep exploration speed travel and was out heavy ? woke to her voice against my ear and talked some ?whiles. We said goodnight and my dreams were so real after the hang up. You wouldn?t believe how beautiful she was ? wow ? simply. She had it in my eyes last night - - and the girl I used to fancy (the one sitting in front of me) just turned around to glance at me and I just keep on writing because she is nothing but a girl named jenny with sunburnt shoulders! ? never touched those lips and never will. She?s not the one!
I don?t even want to be here right now. School is so so boring. Cramped hot lecture halls, 200 different kinds of sweat in here ? male, female, black, white etc. I know I am bad, my chest is dripping and what hair I have there (I am still a man) is drenched wet and down against my skin. I don?t even think I put the white stick on today and even if I did, the shit wouldn?t help. I now believe I sweat like a beast, whether alcohol is in me or not, whether smooth-lie drugs exist in my system. I now sweat constant continously all the time wherever whenever sleep wak night day shower or shit ? and it?s gross?

**parch** · May 29th, 2001, 02:59 AM

haha
i'm gonna reply sooner or later
you don't have to pound it into my face

**rose** · July 7th, 2001, 04:46 AM

amazing...new hope in men. well not the grossness of it but the romance of it. u made my head tilt a little. i like that part about how jenny is nothing now because of the feelings of the kiss and lips..very beautiful.